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Friday, May 22, 2009

Fri, 22 May 2009 15:18:59 GMT

I passed!!! Praise God!!! My final hurdle in medical school!!! YAY!!! I am glad, very glad....

Thanks for all your prayers and support. A good end to what have been a tremendous journey....

To my comrades that are still fighting, my prayers are with you. Be here as we walk towards the final day!

Many, O LORD my God,

are the wonders you have done.

The things you planned for us

no one can recount to you;

were I to speak and tell of them,

they would be too many to declare.

Psalm 40:5

Monday, May 18, 2009

Mon, 18 May 2009 18:31:51 GMT

It has all come down to this...5 years...and it's down to a viva...2 examiners...this wednesday....wish me all the best..and more importantly please keep in your prayers....

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 13:32:53 GMT

It has all come down to this. The final lap.....

Does it not matter how well you started?

Does it not matter how well you did along the way?

It has all come down to this. How well you end it......

Keep me in your prayers.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 16:16:33 GMT

Say aye if you are reading this

I used to be able to reflect upon a year that has past by using my blog as one of the tool. But since I pretty much given up on this, it has not been tremendously helpful but still thankful for the few entries far and few between. Mayb I should start blog more again.... One of the main thing on my mind at in Jan was the my finals which passed with flying colours. The more I venture deeper into 5^th year, the more I realised that it has to be God’s grace. It has been a long year. On the whole, I didn’t really enjoy it. I think I’m carrying a lot of baggages that I need to deal with. Maybe it’s part and parcel of growing up. I’m definitely less ideal than I start with. Less trusting and more cynical. Wiser, I’m not too sure. What lies ahead, I’m not sure. Too often, conversations are about my plans for the future. It not just believe and have the courage....when there’s so much pressure and expectations that overwhelms.....and I’m not hearing God loud and clear. Ya, I’m letting that slip away. I need to get a grip again. Pray for me, that I will learn to truly love Him.

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

Monday, July 14, 2008

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 03:52:52 GMT

Finished my exams! Survived 4^th year! Hopefully I passed....

Reading thru my blogs entries during this year reminded me again of how long this year has been. I started this hardest year of med school surrendering it to God. But I think some other events in life were altogether more difficult than the med school. I can say that I have grown just a lil more as a man. Glad to say that most things have move on. Hope I learned something and not have to go thru the same circumstances again. Plus with the busyness of exam spirit man is getting thinner as well. I’m running back...to what really matters. Yea, i’m more convinced that, this is what really matters. ...okay...babbling....so much of it lately, eh. Anyway it’s my blog! *wondering still got ppl who read this blog one meh* But this is a great way to reflect. Hopefully more entries over my time in Malaysia. no promises though!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Thu, 22 May 2008 09:33:36 GMT

I’m currently doing my GP block. BORING!!! I thought I would love the patient interaction and all...but nah...definitely not my cup of tea. Mostly psychiatric cases (which I hate) and repeat prescriptions. Too little medicine involved.

But yesterday, I witnessed a different consultation. One that ran overtime. One when you don’t know whether the patient is being truthful. One which my GP raised his voice. One when I lost count of how many time the word “f***” was used (mostly by the GP). One that I saw a doctor reaching out to a patient. One I think that the GP is making a significant difference in live of others cos I saw a glimmer of hope for him. Him who is a drug abuser that is so stuck in the pit. Who is desperate for help. Whose past experience will shocked u. Who broke down and cried....a few times... One which my GP was almost in tears at the end (so was I). One that taught me not to be judgemental.

I saw the frailty of human lives.

Later, when I got out of the room....a nurse (perhaps unhappy cos we ran overtime) came up to me to confirm that the patient was a “druggie”. And she proceeded to say something in disgust.

How easy...for us to be judgemental.

Only by grace.....

Monday, March 03, 2008

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 19:01:56 GMT

Hmmm...do people still visit here where entries are few and far apart. J Lots been happening, I want to say I’m busy, but I still find time to waste...so....I should be very busy but I’m a superb procrastinator. Not proud of it! I don’t know why but is this the age where u really grow up? I mean at my age. Life seems like a steep learning curve at the moment. Things are more complicated. Responsibilities are greater. You realise that you have collecting some baggages that need to be dealt with and thrown away. You make your own decisions not only about everyday matters, about life, future, relationships, perceptions and views. The realisation that whatever u decide now will very much determine your future. Or have everyone my age gone thru that and I’m just slow....well, at least I’m coming thru.....haha...my babblings....

I went hill-walking with some church friends last Saturday which was good fun! Took the photo above with my 2megapixels phone’s camera. Thank God for good weather. Weather n UK is just unpredictable. It was all gloomy the day before. The walk reminded me of Nepal!!! Yes, it was not 9 days, not even 9 hours....only 3!! But it did. And it reminded me that even though I might think I would like to go back to Nepal to trek, I really shouldn’t. Haha... On the way to the hill, we drove past the tallest hedge in the world! Nothing really spectacular, and plus it’s all bare cos of winter.

I decided to head home for electives. I was looking for opportunities to do it as a medical mission somewhere in Asia, but didn’t get anything till 2 weeks ago and decided to go home to do it. Then the replies start coming in! Hmmm....but decided that I should just go home and spend time with frens and family. And doing elective back home is good fun! And mayb will help me decided whether I should stay here or home after graduating next year.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 20:08:00 GMT

Random photo-cake I baked for housemate’s birthday not so long ago. I din even ate a slice. U won’t want to when u know how much butter, chocolate, sugar goes into it! Haha...

Life is great! At least that how I feel sometimes....if it was base on emotions, then really it’s a roller coaster ride... it’s so difficult dealing with people! Yea, what do you expect john? A pastor back home who have planted few churches tells me that, and my leaders here too. But I realise a huge part of is dealing with my own struggles and weaknesses first before I can really start to love and go along side people, as a servant and not by any means, more superior. Yes, I have moments where I want to just give up, I screamed at my leaders (thank God for them) I love these people dearly but sometimes u want to shake some sense into them. I’m learning...to lay down my rights, to realise that there have been people who have invested into my life despite me being so difficult..think I still am! Importantly, what Christ has done for me and the very purpose I am doing this. Was reading Phil 2. It’s so encouraging yet challenging.

And today, was just talking to a patient before his surgery. One of those patients who makes your day. Don’t think he is a Christian...but he reminded me...people are important, the best thing he did was working with people.*amazed* to me, that was from God. Something I needed to hear..

Philippians 2

Imitating Christ's Humility

If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
Who, being in very nature God,
      did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
but made himself nothing,
      taking the very nature of a servant,
      being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
      he humbled himself
      and became obedient to death—
         even death on a cross!
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
      and gave him the name that is above every name,
that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
      in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
      to the glory of God the Father.

p/s my Moroccoan photos are finally here. uploading it soon...

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 21:53:24 GMT

Which Sesame Street Character Are You?
	You are part Big Bird. You are something of an eccentric, and not everyone always gives you credit for your inventiveness and intelligence. You may not always know everything, but people turn to you for your sound, unique logic. Plus, you have a big heart. Really big.
	You are part Oscar the Grouch. You can be gruff and often have a chip on your shoulder. Despite your intelligence, manners (and cleanliness) are of little importance to you. At the same time, you have a few very close friends who you allow to see a softer, kinder side of you.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Monday, January 07, 2008

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 19:03:11 GMT

First week of 2008!

Started off with having fever, diarrhoea and vomiting..urgh..not nice..I think it the current outbreak of Norovirus in UK at the moment. When I went in to hospital today, few wards are closed and the infection control team is on patrol. Or might have been the raw oyster and kilos of mussels I had with my friends in Edinburgh. Too bad the photos are not here yet. All of it din help me stop losing weight. A friend actually called me scrawny?!!! Me?? Nah...

back to uni today and workload piling up...

Now looking forward to:

1. Passing my finals in July!

2. But before that it will be tough work, work and work....

Sums up the my life...haih

Was talking to a primary school friend mum in Msia. And she said, o your parents must be very proud of you.?A comment that I haven heard for a very long while. Maybe I thought I have grown out of ppl saying that to me. Not meaning to brag here. But it just strucked me again, I am so blessed, I have no idea sometimes...

Have a great year ahead!!